I have come to the realisation that this intervention has morphed into something separate from what I saw it as; to block myself out from what's going on around me. Now, the focus of everything has become two things, loneliness and deafness. Two words I've thought of constantly throughout this process. What I've been doing is obviously only representing a small amount of those two things, but the base feelings are there. I know I'm not actually lonely, nor deaf. But I feel touches of both.
People around me, when I'm wearing the earphones, seem to take less notice in me. Kind of like I don't have anything to offer. I'm not where they are. Physically, yes, but in terms of me being someone available for interaction (or even a small question), no.
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